Just jay
Always up to something
Class of 2012
Quite? What a joke?
Unrealistic day-dreamer
Alternate, indie-rock, R&B, and hip-hop
Loves to write fantasy
Is taking it one moment at a time
No giving up on my dreams
Even I make mistakes
Can do anything if I set my mind to it.
Really wants to be an actress.
If I want something I don’t wait for it. Life’s to short to wait.
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Present is here past is never coming back
where I'm from.
I am from middle of nowhere Ohio,
A college town,
Know for arts and music programs,
Where nothing happens,
Where nothing happens,
I am from middle of nowhere Ohio.
I am from small hopes,
and little dreams,
From hopeful thinking,
And broken promises,
I am from small hopes.
I am from half a family,
Split right in two,
Mother and sister,
Father and brother,
I am from half a family.
I am from a hopeless mother and a deceased father,
Fatherless father's days,
And late night drunk fights,
From "I hate you" to "Oh, I'm sorry",
I am from a hopeless mother and a deceased father.
I am from "money is everything",
Where dreams don't matter,
And hopes are crushed,
Where money buys happiness,
I am from "money is everything".
I am from laughs, cries, and saying goodbye,
To let go of the past,
Leaving all I ever had,
Hiding pain and hiding fear,
I am from laughs, cries, and saying goodbye.
I am from movie nights,
With my sister and friends,
People who talk back to the screens,
And leave their ringers on,
I am from movie nights,
I am from sore fingers,
Writing until my hand can't move,
Write a page-popping story,
Soon will have to stop and stretch,
I am from sore fingers.
Where I can be Me.
The meadow,
Deer creep caution,
From their long slumber,
Does awake to their first summer.
The pond,
Melodic swaying over the rocks,
Frogs jump, splashing water on the banks,
Smell of fresh air through my nose.
Hummingbirds,
Ringing in my ears,
Sound as sweet as sugar,
Within the drum of my ear.
Wind,
sways but never seems to stay,
Causing the grass to wave,
Unseen beauty finds its arms
The sunset,
Hide its face from the moon,
Twilight approaches,
Let the forest fall again.
Never fear,
Natures near,
To tell you,
It’s late night lullaby
What has this world become?
I remember...
When boys had coodies...
Coodie shot last for ever...
‘Circle, circle. Dot, dot...
Now I have my coodie shot’...
Now were dating.
I remember...
When you were my best friend...
We did everything together...
Two leaders...
but it never worked...
Now we do not associate.
I remember...
When tag...
capture the flag...
And hid and seek....
Were the games...
Now all you play is your girlfriend.
I remember...
When we played...
from sun up to sun down...
Sleep-overs...
Acting grow up...
Now you are pregnant!
I remember...
When math consisted...
Of add & subtract...
Fraction were just new...
And math was useful....
Now math consists of ‘and when will I use in everyday life’
I remember...
When I had faith...
And thought god was everything...
If I loved him enough...
My daddy would live again...
Now I know silly dreams belong in the pages of my books.
I remember...
When I would wish...
I was in middle school...
With the ‘big kids’...
And my sister...
Now I wish I could go back.
I remember...
When my sister and I...
Fought everyday...
First over toys...
They me using her makeup...
Now she is my best friend.
I remember...
When I invented...
the Puppy dog eyes...
Flutter the eyelashes...
And one single tear...
Yeah that still works on my parents
I remember…
The old friends,
And old memories.
Wish we never would have.
He
With Warm arms,
Handsome face,
Bright eyes,
And the heart of a lion
She
Foolish being,
Stupid girl,
Hopefully thinking
With a heart of glass.
We
Were in love,
were a train wreak,
Once was,
Love is a camera,
full of memories.
They,
Never should have,
Never would have,
But did.
All it was,
Was a laugh in a sea of sadness.A hopeless wish.
He was hers,
He was mine,
She is me,
We were once,
They are no more.
Deer creep caution,
From their long slumber,
Does awake to their first summer.
The pond,
Melodic swaying over the rocks,
Frogs jump, splashing water on the banks,
Smell of fresh air through my nose.
Hummingbirds,
Ringing in my ears,
Sound as sweet as sugar,
Within the drum of my ear.
Wind,
sways but never seems to stay,
Causing the grass to wave,
Unseen beauty finds its arms
The sunset,
Hide its face from the moon,
Twilight approaches,
Let the forest fall again.
Never fear,
Natures near,
To tell you,
It’s late night lullaby
What has this world become?
I remember...
When boys had coodies...
Coodie shot last for ever...
‘Circle, circle. Dot, dot...
Now I have my coodie shot’...
Now were dating.
I remember...
When you were my best friend...
We did everything together...
Two leaders...
but it never worked...
Now we do not associate.
I remember...
When tag...
capture the flag...
And hid and seek....
Were the games...
Now all you play is your girlfriend.
I remember...
When we played...
from sun up to sun down...
Sleep-overs...
Acting grow up...
Now you are pregnant!
I remember...
When math consisted...
Of add & subtract...
Fraction were just new...
And math was useful....
Now math consists of ‘and when will I use in everyday life’
I remember...
When I had faith...
And thought god was everything...
If I loved him enough...
My daddy would live again...
Now I know silly dreams belong in the pages of my books.
I remember...
When I would wish...
I was in middle school...
With the ‘big kids’...
And my sister...
Now I wish I could go back.
I remember...
When my sister and I...
Fought everyday...
First over toys...
They me using her makeup...
Now she is my best friend.
I remember...
When I invented...
the Puppy dog eyes...
Flutter the eyelashes...
And one single tear...
Yeah that still works on my parents
I remember…
The old friends,
And old memories.
Wish we never would have.
He
With Warm arms,
Handsome face,
Bright eyes,
And the heart of a lion
She
Foolish being,
Stupid girl,
Hopefully thinking
With a heart of glass.
We
Were in love,
were a train wreak,
Once was,
Love is a camera,
full of memories.
They,
Never should have,
Never would have,
But did.
All it was,
Was a laugh in a sea of sadness.A hopeless wish.
He was hers,
He was mine,
She is me,
We were once,
They are no more.
I’m scared,
To be like my mother,
Who has cause pain inside and out,
Who struck depression upon what she created,
Who acts as if nothing happen.
I’m scared,
To amount to what my father did,
24 years wasted,
Drank away, and what is left to say,
Death and two abandoned children.
I’m scared
To grow up,
To struggle through life,
Like my family did,
Like everyone did.
I’m scared,
That life will be wasted,
With my silly dreams,
And people who weren’t there,
People who I thought cared
I’m scared,
to get stuck here,
In Ohio,
With all these low lives,
Where ever pain was felt.
I’m scared,
And I’ll admit it,
I’m scared of life,
And everything about it,
I don’t want it.
I want to hide,
And begin to cry,
But that won’t stop me,
From trying.
Yeah, yeah I’m really scared.
To be like my mother,
Who has cause pain inside and out,
Who struck depression upon what she created,
Who acts as if nothing happen.
I’m scared,
To amount to what my father did,
24 years wasted,
Drank away, and what is left to say,
Death and two abandoned children.
I’m scared
To grow up,
To struggle through life,
Like my family did,
Like everyone did.
I’m scared,
That life will be wasted,
With my silly dreams,
And people who weren’t there,
People who I thought cared
I’m scared,
to get stuck here,
In Ohio,
With all these low lives,
Where ever pain was felt.
I’m scared,
And I’ll admit it,
I’m scared of life,
And everything about it,
I don’t want it.
I want to hide,
And begin to cry,
But that won’t stop me,
From trying.
Yeah, yeah I’m really scared.
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